uninspiredmusings:

You know, I feel a bit useless now.

There’s this sort of numb pain…and I know that’s dumb - how can pain be numb? Yet there it is; pain in the numbness. A bit like drowning, I suppose. There’s just so much weight and tossing and tumultuous stirring and it just slices through you until you can’t feel anymore. And there’s pain in that. And there’s pain in the fact that I feel trapped. There’s pain in the fact that I couldn’t escape if I tried. And then there’s pain in the fact that I’ve learned I don’t want to escape.

I just want to sink.

You know, I feel a bit useless now.

There’s this sort of numb pain…and I know that’s dumb - how can pain be numb? Yet there it is; pain in the numbness. A bit like drowning, I suppose. There’s just so much weight and tossing and tumultuous stirring and it just slices through you until you can’t feel anymore. And there’s pain in that. And there’s pain in the fact that I feel trapped. There’s pain in the fact that I couldn’t escape if I tried. And then there’s pain in the fact that I’ve learned I don’t want to escape.

I just want to sink.

1.1.13

I haven’t visited you in a while.

I’m not quite sure what that means.
Do I say sorry?
I miss you, yes, but
Where has it all gone?
I can’t remember anything anymore.
That scares me.
And I don’t mean to disappoint,
But I can’t say I quite regret it.
Though, I’m not proud either.

Perhaps I’ll just wait it out, then.